Im back.

It's been awhile since I posted an update from this blog. Actually, Ive longed forgotten I have this blog... 

It's refreshing to read how I poured what's in my mind and what I currently feel. I guess this is the universe way of telling me to go on and pour out what I feel through this blog. Because honestly, I am not alright. And I don't know why I cannot express it to people around me. Maybe because I was thinking that... they will never understand? or they will never listen? or they are busy with their own problems and struggles? or I just don't want to burden them with my negativity and petty feelings.

You know that feeling when you're surrounded with people yet you still feel alone?

And so you just wanna shut off and stay in your own world. 

Okay, this post will be all over the place because I just want to unload everything.

These thoughts and feelings has been inside me for awhile now. Ive been thinking of letting it out but for some reason I got so occupied and so I forgot to let it out. Ive been telling myself to go on write it on your blog but then I keep getting distracted with life's responsibilities and taking care of people around me.

Which makes me realize... 

When did I take care of myself? Since when did I take a break? 

Thats probably the reason why I cannot find the answer to the questions Ive keep on asking myself eversince 2024 entered....

What am I doing with my life? 

How do you love yourself?