Blog: I Just Wanna Cry...

I just realize that I do have so many friends yet I dont have that one person I can run everytime I wanna cry and burst out everything I feel. Someone I can call anytime of the day. Someone who is willing to listen to my every rants and cries. Its hard... Specially right now...

I just dont get my mom ive been trying so hard to understand her. Everyone around advice me to understand because she's old and single. Ive been understanding her and I think its too much already. She's been hurting me a lot when all I did was work and provide everything for my son and for this family.  It was not easy being a mom... a daughter... and the provider. I admit some of my misery was o my wrong actions in the past but ive been trying hard to make it right.

Was it my fault that my mom is still single right now? I dont think it is because I never said she shouldn't mary any man. We were never close and I never contradict whatever it is that she does. I've strive so hard to finish school on my own. And even now Im working hard to earn a living and provide for my family which includes her. I just dont know she hate me that much. Was it because I failed before? That I committed big mistakes? Well every does... Im no perfect person. Even her she committed big mistake tooo. Was it because I manage to provide everything for the family while she was struggling to provide me with anything before? Oh common thats bullshit! How would we live if I dont work so hard?