I'll Be There...

So I was watching some videos of Cloie, KC and Gabby Concepcion on YouTube until I found this movie trailer of I'll Be There which played by KC and Gabby Concepcion. It's a movie about family relationship, father and daughter relationship, a father irresponsibility and regrets. I wanted to watched it but thought I wont be ready watching this. Why? Because Im not ready. The movie it self plays the same as what my relationship with my father.

I never had a father growing up. We never had our moment. I dont know if he has been thinking and wondering how am I doing right now. I don't have any idea. I used to hate him a lot and never wants to forgive him if ever one day he ask for it... I have a lot of questions before that eventually turns into bitterness since the answers no where to be find.

But then again, age and time change me a lot... probably. Right now all I wanted is to see people that is related to me. Probably the curiosity of being with those people that I have never seen or be with melts down the bitterness as time goes by... Probably not all but a bit. Probably hate turns to curiosity... or I have grown and learn so much in life that hating them will be a senseless feeling to bear. Hoever whatever it is.... atleast I have that curiosity...
What would it be like to meet your father the second time around?
What would it be like to meet your half siblings the first time? 
What would it be like to be given a chance to spend quality time with them? 
Are they happy? Would they be happy?
Do they know I exist? 
Do they also think about me? 
Those are just few of the questions that come running in my mind since I was young. That after asking myself a gazillion times I finally gave up and no longer waist my time hating. I dont guarantee that I no longer have any angst on my father much like KC did with hers. But all I wanted now is to find answers and fill in that curiosity inside me. And until then, I'll watch this movie...